That Moment When God Reveals Your Husband

   Being a woman we all for the most part want to be married. While walking with Christ we usually want God to reveal something about our future husband, if not flat out being told who he is. Well this summer God revealed mine to me. Thank God He takes our desires into consideration. He is truly a Father. I first want to share both my testimony of my relationship with "the one" and my experience when God revealed this to me.
   I met Aaron my sophomore year of high school through mutual friends. At that time I absolutely could not stand him. Today I realized my past had affected greatly why I was so mean to him. But boy did he have it hard whenever he tried to make conversation, joke, or work with me in class. I can't stress it enough that I could NOT stand him. Up to this very day, he has always been the comical-make everyone laugh type. Every time I saw him be a class clown at school, I always reminded myself of how I would never date a guy like that. Sophomore year dwindled on by and that was really about it.

                                                 (sophomore year..Aaron wasn't buff then lol)
   Junior year came and again Aaron decided to try to pursue me. I was not having that. Through the years I had experienced seeing my mother be in an abusive relationship; I just did not have time for a guy..only school. As the year went on and Aaron would not leave me alone, he actually began to wear on me bit by bit, but I denied it over and over. November of junior year I knew I did like him and right when I decided to give in, I found out that day Aaron had already been pursuing another girl. And not only pursuing but already her boyfriend. I was beyond mad and upset considering this dude had already kissed me like 3 times by this time lol. He didn't want to tell me and so we fell out for about two weeks. Over Thanksgiving break boy did I miss him but I'm a stubborn chick and was not going to talk to him. But that following Sunday he text me and everything was out the window lol. Christmas Day came and he asked me out, from that point love had been awakened.

                                                       (junior year..puppy love,puppy love)                                                          
   The puppy love months were amazing, as with any new couple but after a few months too much began to awaken and came to surface. Sexual immorality eased its way into our relationship and it was the worst thing that happened to our relationship. Aaron was my first everything..kiss, boyfriend, and sexual partner. Both of us were both each others first sexual partners so you can imagine the excitement of the flesh. It went from "messing around" to actually being involved with one another. Aaron had grown up in a Christian home, I hadn't so when this began to happen his conviction was sitting there waiting on him every single time and I just never could understand why he would always get so upset. This sexual immorality went from excitement, to being upset, to pregnancy scares, pregnancy tests, plan B, birth control pills..it was a never ending cycle, just starting over and over. We didn't want to do it anymore but just couldn't stop. We were slaves to this and it changed who we were, how we acted to one another, our relationship was a mess!

                              (Senior Year! He was more than just my lil football captain, he was my god!)
   My heart began to fill with unforgiveness towards Aaron. Everyone at school seen him as the "good Christian boy" but I knew otherwise. I began to resent him for introducing me to all of this. I blamed him for every single time we had been sexually active. How could the guy who loved me let me go to the store multiple times by myself to go buy condoms, pregnancy tests, Plan B? I despised him for being satisfied every time we did something when I didn't even want to do it. I never would tell him that but I assumed he should have knew. I regretted it all. Before him I had never even cared to be with a guy, and now look at me, I was completely attached. He was my god and I was completely fine with that.

                                                             (Departing for college..tear..)
   We went off to separate colleges and this was one of the roughest parts of our relationship. We didn't know when we were going to see one another and we argued all the time. I was all the way at UTK and he was at APSU. For the majority of the time I was certain we weren't going to last. I began to notice that when we did hang out together back at home he acted different. He barely held my hand, started talking about only dating in public (I now know he meant courting), he no longer sat next to me on the couch..I had no idea what was going on but I was willing to have sex with him if it meant he would remain mine. As the semester went on he began to talk about his new friends and an on-campus church, U Church, that he attended. I was so jealous of him because I was miserable at UT. I wanted what he had...BAD..so I made the decision to transfer to APSU my freshmen spring semester.
   I got introduced to all his friends and the first night I attended U Church, I cracked. I knew all the stuff I had been through, was going through, and doing I didn't want anymore. That very next day I gave my life to Christ. That's when everything began to make sense. Aaron had gave his life to Christ the semester before which was why he had been acting so "weird." I was still blind in my sin and couldn't understand what had happened to him. God began to work on me with so many things. One of the biggest things was being able to forgive Aaron. God helped me see that Aaron wasn't living for Christ at that time, he was just like me. I sat down and told Aaron everything that had hurt me and from that point God healed both of us. We were no longer ashamed.

                                                           (ALL SAVED ALL SERIOUS!!)
   So now we are caught up to this summer that just passed. Aaron and I both began to realize we needed to find out if God wanted us to be together. This was tough to think God could possibly separate us after all we have been through and as long as we have been together, very scary and emotional. But with advice from accountability partners and couples we continued to push through. Aaron called me one day and told me about his encounter with God, and told me we were meant to be together. Excitement rushed through me but so did doubt. What if that was just his emotions telling him that? But I knew God wouldn't send mixed signals, that was the enemy. Although I was excited I wanted an encounter for myself, directly from God. A few weeks went by and one night while spending alone time with God I was researching characteristics to look in for a partner and yourself for marriage/courting. I began to write in my journal to God about what I had researched, and then telling Him how I felt about Aaron and what I loved about him. In the midst of writing I stopped and just balled my eyes out. It wasn't because I was sad but at that moment I knew Aaron was the one (every time God speaks to me I cry a lot for some odd reason). I rejoiced and praised God for everything, for where me and Aaron started to where we are at now. It was only by the grace of God.
   This moment made me realize that God knows and takes the desires of our hearts into account. He isn't a dictator seeking only for Himself but that He really loves us and wants us to be happy while serving Him. I look at Aaron now and become speechless seeing where God has brought him. To know someone when they are in the dark and look at them following Jesus is a miracle. I thank God for letting this be the one I get to spend the rest of my life with. God has saved and cleansed us both and we now walk in purity; that is God and God alone. I sit and smile thinking how God is allowing us to do everything we did in sin correctly this time, to wait, remain pure until He is ready to make us one. We have a powerful story to encourage our future sons and daughters to wait for God to awaken love. It's kind of cool being able to know the guy who has been my first everything will be my first (and only) husband. Thank You Father.

This is Our Story ;)